Anger

I don't know where our anger comes from, but its probably from something that is opposite of the heart, so... Probably the liver. I guess i never really understood why people got mad or why i ever got mad when i did or do. When people are willing to 'put themselves in someone elses shoes'. A lot of people confuse this, though. It doesn't simply mean what would you do in this circumstance. People judge others character when they think this way, and usually incorrectly. We don't know everything that is going on with someone else unless we actually feel through experience for ourselves. When someone does something they shouldn't, most people look at it and say, 'well i wouldn't have done that so why did they? I must be better than them' or 'its my place to put them in THEIR place because obviously they can't get themself there'. It's easy to say so when you can see the big picture. I'll invade the eighth grade and freshman world for a moment.

Let's even turn it into a fun little story *yay!* Ahem. Kate (what an original name) thinks she loves Pete. (His real name is Petrucio but for the sake of the story...) Unfortunately she hardly ever gets to see him except for tuesdays and thursdays when he doesn't have a college class last period and so ends up in the library where she finds him and casually (yet internally terrified) approaches him on occasion and strikes up warm conversation.

Yep... Umm... This goes on for about two months and things have heated up quite warmly. Especially the time that kate dropped her book and pete had to tape it up. She held the book while pete taped it up. Their hands brushed multiple times. This also started the walking home together phase. It was that same day that kates mother decided that it was warm enough to walk home. Kate disagreed. But that didn't matter because school was almost over. Walking home only lasted for about a week because pete got a car. About this time they had both Her friends were jealous. Mostly they were upset at the distance that had come between them.they had nothing against pete though... At least not yet.

Her friends were jealous. Mostly they were upset at the distance that had come between them.they had nothing against pete though... At least not yet. One night though, kate snuck out with pete to get ice cream and hot chocolate (i know, right?) which her friends -not to mention her mother- didn't approve of. She didn't think it counted as a date since his little sister tagged along. But there was tension resulting nonetheless. A week later kate approached pete with this. She explained the circumstances. Luckily they were both mormon (go figure, its like this story takes place in blanding) and he was a dutiful priest. Unfortunately he was still a teenage boy and she was a teenage girl and they were still in his car and somehow they had ended up with their fingers intertwined during this discussion. They both understood that this was against page 13 of For The Strength of Youth where it clearly states not to date until the age of 16.

Ugh! Kate really screwed up, didn't she?

Her friends definitely judged her when they got mad at her and read to her page 13 of For The Strength Of Youth. But they just didn't understand.

Hmm...I'm not even sure this story is relevant. My back hurts from trying to to get killed by Turk. He is a real deusch sometimes. I wasn't angry though. Actually, I was more worried that I was going to have to hurt HIM. It wouldn't have been good. I didn't want to. But he really almost left no alternative. Good thing I'm so evasive.

I also decided to not be angry about another thing that was making me angry. At the dance, I saw a certain someone with a 2 other someones that I all but loathe. It made me mad, but I got past it and decided that it wasn't worth it. We had previously discussed the two people that she was with, and their character, and why she probably shouldn't hang out with them. Also I want her to be the best she can be. Also I was just feeling a little jealous. Anyway, I just decided that if she wants to be involved with them, then I guess I probably don't want to be involved with her. Maybe if she decides that she shouldn't hang out with them, then I can look into it a little further. Right?

Something Mike said sounded a little profound. He said, "I'm not looking for a relationship, I'm just looking for somebody that cares about me a lot, and if that turns into a relationship, so be it."

It doesn't matter so much what the titles and names are. It's hard, impossible to care about someone who doesn't care about you if you approach it in the right way.

But that has nothing to do with anger, so I'm digressing, so I'm going to bed.